Ready, Fire, Aim, Same As It Ever Was.
Aside from magic stuff, I watch and listen to the usual self development podcast rigmarole. Yesterday I saw a bit with Joey Diaz where he said a couple of really good things. The first was: "Don't worry, if you don't play your day, you're in no danger of getting ahead, and moving forward." That one stuck, because it's a sticking point with me. In November of 2018 I was getting my 2019 planning in order, and then 2018 swept my leg. I had one of those blows that removes a key pillar of your life plans, leaves a smoking hole in your social circle and generally derails you and leaves you in a septic pool.
So, my plans for 2019 are fuzzy. I've been working on them for months but tragedy strikes and I've been coping best as I'm able. I'm going to have to leap into 2019 without a perfectly realized set of steps to follow. I've got a good Idea though. Which is good, because this blog is about applying effort and magic every single day. It's the old "Ready, Fire, Aim!" thing.
The second thing Joey Diaz said was: "Everything in my life got about 80% better once I took responsibility for everything in my life."
Now this kind of clashes with the idea that I'm behind in my planning because of an outside circumstance. And while I ultimately am not responsible for the meteor strike that wreaked havoc in the lives of myself and my circle, I AM responsible for being in the position that when one of life's inevitable tragedies happened this time it shook me this badly and put me in an even shakier situation than I was before. Death and destruction are inevitable, being vulnerable or anti-fragile is my responsibility.
Truth is I am aware of some of things I did to myself this year that really screwed me up. First and foremost I indiscriminately used the Internet as an addictive distraction, wasting thousands of hours of valuable time I could have been using productively. Thousands of hours of pointless Youtube videos, streaming shows, social media, does anyone even "surf the net" anymore? Sure some of it was arguably productive, if you want to know something you can look it up and multiple sources and then you've got the info. That's where a lot of the Ideas I'm implementing this year are coming from. But did I do that most of the time? No, I bickered with people and mindlessly watched videos like a nitwit. Stripping the serotonin and dopamine out of my brain looking for the next hit of novelty and cheap thrills. No bueno.
Next I ate the best crap I could get my hands on. Not the best most nutritious food, but the tastiest stuff. The results were predictable and I've been doing it for years. This isn't going to be a blog about diet, nutrition, and fitness there's enough of that out there. But I now have to shed 1/2 of my current body weight. Luckily I've done it before, and in a lot of ways it's the simplest task I have ahead of me, and will have some of the most pay off socially financially, and professionally. Everybody's got a goddamn opinion on how other people are supposed to lose weight, but it's not rocket science. Even though it's simple, that doesn't mean it's easy. I'm doing it, but we won't be talking much about it here, if magic worked for this we'd all know it. 'Nuff said.
Financially I'm on a trajectory, and it's leading to homelessness. THIS I am throwing magic at. I did some in 2018, but it wasn't very effective. Had I completed the "Secret Sauce" program I would probably know exactly how much and exactly what kind of magic I'd be doing every single day of 2019. I do not, so one of the 1st tasks on my Hit List is to work out the exact sequence of the practices I will be employing tomorrow morning and going forward.
2018 saw the collapse of a lot of my previous social circles. Community and Relationships have been on my mind a lot this last year. I am not entirely clear what I should be doing in this realm. I definitely would prefer more real world interactions with real human communities and less online networked nonsense. I will be thinking about how to apply magic to this. As for romance, lurve and affection, again I'll take complete responsibility for where this has been at for me this last year and where I'd like it to go. I'm not going to spend as much time and magic on that, not going to write that much about it, love is no emergency. I might do some candle spells for general attraction, but avoiding sleeping on the sidewalk while dying of diabesity seems a bit more pressing.
Another misstep I made, and this one will seem a bit strange is that I by far overspent what little monies I had on internet courses. Good news is that I have and had some really great courses, some of which I'll be talking about. Bad news is I barely managed to act on some of these courses I could barely afford. Worse news I suppose is that I have absolute confirmation that I am susceptible to sales pitches.
...despite my reluctance to write on the blog today, I've thrown up some verbiage here. The goal for this blog is to post something here every day about using magic to transform my life. Some days that's going to look like "I did a Tarot card reading, and went back to bed." Tonight for instance, I'll be doing some Road Opening work for the coming year, enlivening some Sigils, making offerings to patron spirits.
There's tons of good news too, I've got resources galore, dozens of ways to get what I need. More about that later.
So, my plans for 2019 are fuzzy. I've been working on them for months but tragedy strikes and I've been coping best as I'm able. I'm going to have to leap into 2019 without a perfectly realized set of steps to follow. I've got a good Idea though. Which is good, because this blog is about applying effort and magic every single day. It's the old "Ready, Fire, Aim!" thing.
The second thing Joey Diaz said was: "Everything in my life got about 80% better once I took responsibility for everything in my life."
Now this kind of clashes with the idea that I'm behind in my planning because of an outside circumstance. And while I ultimately am not responsible for the meteor strike that wreaked havoc in the lives of myself and my circle, I AM responsible for being in the position that when one of life's inevitable tragedies happened this time it shook me this badly and put me in an even shakier situation than I was before. Death and destruction are inevitable, being vulnerable or anti-fragile is my responsibility.
Truth is I am aware of some of things I did to myself this year that really screwed me up. First and foremost I indiscriminately used the Internet as an addictive distraction, wasting thousands of hours of valuable time I could have been using productively. Thousands of hours of pointless Youtube videos, streaming shows, social media, does anyone even "surf the net" anymore? Sure some of it was arguably productive, if you want to know something you can look it up and multiple sources and then you've got the info. That's where a lot of the Ideas I'm implementing this year are coming from. But did I do that most of the time? No, I bickered with people and mindlessly watched videos like a nitwit. Stripping the serotonin and dopamine out of my brain looking for the next hit of novelty and cheap thrills. No bueno.
Next I ate the best crap I could get my hands on. Not the best most nutritious food, but the tastiest stuff. The results were predictable and I've been doing it for years. This isn't going to be a blog about diet, nutrition, and fitness there's enough of that out there. But I now have to shed 1/2 of my current body weight. Luckily I've done it before, and in a lot of ways it's the simplest task I have ahead of me, and will have some of the most pay off socially financially, and professionally. Everybody's got a goddamn opinion on how other people are supposed to lose weight, but it's not rocket science. Even though it's simple, that doesn't mean it's easy. I'm doing it, but we won't be talking much about it here, if magic worked for this we'd all know it. 'Nuff said.
Financially I'm on a trajectory, and it's leading to homelessness. THIS I am throwing magic at. I did some in 2018, but it wasn't very effective. Had I completed the "Secret Sauce" program I would probably know exactly how much and exactly what kind of magic I'd be doing every single day of 2019. I do not, so one of the 1st tasks on my Hit List is to work out the exact sequence of the practices I will be employing tomorrow morning and going forward.
2018 saw the collapse of a lot of my previous social circles. Community and Relationships have been on my mind a lot this last year. I am not entirely clear what I should be doing in this realm. I definitely would prefer more real world interactions with real human communities and less online networked nonsense. I will be thinking about how to apply magic to this. As for romance, lurve and affection, again I'll take complete responsibility for where this has been at for me this last year and where I'd like it to go. I'm not going to spend as much time and magic on that, not going to write that much about it, love is no emergency. I might do some candle spells for general attraction, but avoiding sleeping on the sidewalk while dying of diabesity seems a bit more pressing.
Another misstep I made, and this one will seem a bit strange is that I by far overspent what little monies I had on internet courses. Good news is that I have and had some really great courses, some of which I'll be talking about. Bad news is I barely managed to act on some of these courses I could barely afford. Worse news I suppose is that I have absolute confirmation that I am susceptible to sales pitches.
...despite my reluctance to write on the blog today, I've thrown up some verbiage here. The goal for this blog is to post something here every day about using magic to transform my life. Some days that's going to look like "I did a Tarot card reading, and went back to bed." Tonight for instance, I'll be doing some Road Opening work for the coming year, enlivening some Sigils, making offerings to patron spirits.
There's tons of good news too, I've got resources galore, dozens of ways to get what I need. More about that later.
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